Thursday, February 29, 2024

A Poem - Kestrel (2024)

Head to the West,
Wings, tails splayed,
At a Zephyr's behest,
A pact is made.

Each tiny buffet
A bargaining,
Twixt wind and I,
I'm harbouring

The keenness of my feathered kin,
To hunt 
To kill,
To eat,
To wean.

I hover, pinned unto the skies,
A tiny trembling pricks my eyes.
I see you, drop and
Steal you, vole.
In three quick gulps
You go down whole.

I say a prayer for you my brother,
Return you to the Axis' wheel,
In wind I rest until another
Kindred heart I spy, revealed.

A Poem - Gull (2024)

Long curved wings
Scythe the salt tang
Rising on wave draughts
The gull sang 
Rare

Raucous cries
The salt wind
Tears

From the sky.
Held in her eye
A shape on the edge
Of seeing.

Soaring high,
She gives cry,
A cape on the edge
Of being.

Land ahoy,
She sighs,
Drifting
On a
Salt tang sky.

Land ahoy.

A Poem - Oisín and the Hare (2024)

I quit my form
As eventide
Droppeth 
Into looming night.

The air is warm,
The waning moon
A spectral shifting 
Hazy light.

I am brown hare,
The night in flux.
I am brown hare,
For it's the crux

Of the matter,
How they natter!
The crepuscular!

Tan and muscular
Thighs
Drive me forth
In the chase.

Quick! The race, 
Unseen,
Save Oisín
Rides he keen -
He has seen
My course,

I am hoarse, 
In my breath.

My leg
Takes a dart.

Oh my heart
Is a-thrumming
And my head is a-drumming,
I slip
Through a portal,
Shift to a mortal,
And lay me down
A-panting. 

'Whither goest thou?'
Says Oisín,
A-panting,
Hoarse.
'My dart has stayed thy
Lilting course.
But what before me
Can I say?
A milk-white maiden,
Tresses grey.

A wound upon
Her shapely thigh,
She shakes and trembles,
Heaves and sighs.'

Wednesday, February 28, 2024

A Poem - Slug (2024)

Implacably oozing
O'er twig and leaf,
Sedately cruising -
Glide beneath.

Rot above me,
Rot below,
Rot that sends me
All aglow.

Rotting leaf 
And rotting bough,
I'll munch it down
I well know how.

My rasp it scrapes
And gathers in
Rotting rot
And I begin

To break down
One thing 
To the next
And never will
My plans be vexed.

I turn decay
To matter apt
To make the nettle strong,

The nutrients
That I release 
Absorbed in Nature's Song.

A Poem - Long-tailed Tit (2024)

'I make my nest amongst the gorse,
From spider's silk and moss and horse
Hair I find and lichens thrust;
I craft a raft and laying thus

My tiny eggs and chicks are safe
From prying eyes and preying claws,
Hidden well in thorn and leaf,
From spying eyes and hungry maws.

I flit a-bobbing over trees,
Anointed by the summer breeze,
I seek the caterpillar green,
I feast on what is seldom seen.

Underneath bright summer's trees,
I bob through hazy mists of morn,
My pink, cream, blueness blurry sees
No beauty equal to my form.'

Such delicacy seldom gifts
The gaze of human minds,
Exquisite bird, thou long-tailed tit
You steal my heart in kind.

A Poem - Hedgehog (2024)

A Poem - Hedgehog (2024)

Rooting, snootling,
Leafsome mulch,
I have a fire in my head.

Looting, pootling,
Toothsome, such;
I'll root the worm out
From his bed.

Ambling, Rambling
Confident,
My weaponed canopy above,

Fumbling, gamboling,
I'll present,
A worm unto my lady-love.

Singing, ringing.
Chords pour forth,
The fire abates within my head.

Bringing, tingling,
Oh she's worth
A-wooing to my leafy bed.

Monday, February 26, 2024

A Poem - Fox (2024)

I take the night's air softly seeking,
Dreams held in my dreamer’s keeping.
Dreams of realms beyond this plane,
Dreams I dreamt of once again.

I bridge the gap between two worlds;
My liminality unfurls
The scrolls upon which poets writ
Tales on cunning, tales of wit.

I take the night's air all a-roaming
O’er tangled woodlands all a-gloaming,
I seek the scent of the brown hare,
I seek the spoor held in the air.

I'll draw ye where the shadows bleed,
Beyond vexatious law and creed;
The river flows with whispered ink -
The stars are drawn
To see us drink.

The wight's lair yawns beneath our feet,
Where ancient sprite and 
Dreamer meet;
The river riven deep below,
Where rime not reason 
Maketh so.

I bridge the gap twixt There and Here,
Divest yourself of mortal fears -
I'll lead you by my vulpine wiles
Unto the dreams the earth reviles.

I take the night's air softly seeking,
Dreams held in my dreamer’s keeping.
Dreams of realms beyond this plane,
Dreams I dreamt of once again.

Now this to tell thee
'Fore ye wake;
No wakeful joy
May ever slake -
The yearning yawning
Quakes inside -
Again to dream!
Two worlds bestride.

A Poem - Mole (2024)

Shovel,
Sniff,
Grumble,
Sniffle.

Feel,
Sniff,
Grumble,
Shovel.

Sniff,
Sniff,
Grumble, 
Shovel.

Worm!
Chomp,
Chomp,
Grin!...

Shovel,
Sniff,
Grumble,
Shovel.

Feel,
Sniff,
Grumble,
Shovel.

Sniff,
Sniff.
Grumble,
Shovel.. 

I win!

A Poem - Newt (2024)

An egg I am,
Under a folded leaf
In the cool waters
Of the stagnant pool.

A tadpole I am
Feathery gills to breathe by.
Feasting on algae on the rocks
And tiny water fleas.

An eft I am,
On the land,
Breathing 
Through my lungs and skin.
Munching spiders,
Mites and
Beetles.

A newt I am
When I've had my fill
Of worms and slugs,
Laying an egg

Under a folded leaf
In the cool waters
Of the stagnant pool.

Sunday, February 25, 2024

A Poem - Theft (2008)


Dread-cold slabs of iron-stone
Slam down and crushing steal,
Warmth, light, direction, isolate
Hope, heart and dreams and will.

The crushing looming horror weighs
On soul and mind, my heart!
Lord bless this soul,
So cold so old,
So cruelly set apart.

Saturday, February 24, 2024

A Poem - Magpie (2024)

Resplendent in my piebald coat,
Iridescent in the slanting beams.
Cawing from my scratchy throat,
What is this that shyly gleams,

A-glimmer in the Springtime sun?
I must possess thee, near I hop,
Oh treasure! Treasure, treasure come!
Complete my treasure's crops.

A Story - Dubh the Raven and the Tapestry of Death (2024)

It was the Springtide of May and thirty-six silver moons since Dubh the Raven had first cracked the egg and taken his breath of the Wide World.

Dubh had been learning his lessons well. He could fly just as fleet as any of the ravens in his unkindness, for that is the name given to a group of ravens, in all kinds of weather. He had as keen an eye and as keen a sense of smell as any young raven could wish for.

On this day, when he came of age as an adult raven, ready to bond with a mate and have chicklings of his own, that is three years old, he knew where his wings would take him. To the Cracked Oak atop the Gruama Fell to seek council of the Morrigan, the ancient silver Raven, the longest-lived of a long-lived race of birds.

Of all the People of the Feathered Wing, Dubh most admired the Kingfisher he saw darting about in a blur of blue and gold about the babbling brook and diving like an arrow into the water to catch little silver fish.

Dubh had learned to peck the flesh and bones of dead animals along with all his people but he thought what a thrill it must be to dive so sweetly and to catch a fish. 

He was a young Raven and it is quite common for young people to wish they could be something different to what they are and take the special things that they can do for granted.

Dubh gave two swift beats of his sable wings and leapt into the air, quickly rising to the tops of the budding trees with slow, strong flaps. Dubh turned West to follow the slant of the hot sun’s beams in the direction of the Gruama Fell which, despite the attentions of the early morning sun, lay shrouded in a gloomy mist.

Dubh’s heart sang in him for the joy of the flight and the joy of his third naming day! He had wondered for days what the Morrigan, the Great Grey Sage, would have to impart to him. She was very ancient and very wise, if not a little disconcerting at times! The last time he had seen her was indeed his naming day when she has gifted him his name, Dubh.

‘Dubh come down, frown, clown!’ cawed a rasping voice below him and he spread his wings wide to stay his careering through the air. He had reached the Gruama Fell, a barren misty waste save for one great oak tree bursting forth from a cleft in the rock.

At some dim point in its ancient history the tree’s trunk had been cleaved in two by a lightning strike, but the tree still lived nonetheless and Dubh alighted in one half of the tree’s branches in a flurry of flapping feathers. And in the other half of the great tree the Morrigan, the Great Gray Sage, was perched and it was she that had given the call!

‘Well met Dubh, grub, nub!’ she cawed, then cackled, coughed, shook out her threadbare wings and settled her greying feathers, rolling her piercing eyes before settling a sharp look upon Dubh once again.

‘Is it time? Is it your day, way, pray?’ she cawed, ‘Thirty-six summers long, song, strong!’

‘Um, yes’ said Dubh, ‘I am here for your blessing Mistress Morrigan’

‘Bless, yes, guess! What have we here I wonder? What's in your heart, part, dart?’ asked the Morrigan.

‘Well Mistress, it's in my heart that I should like to catch a fish….’,

‘Fish, wish, pish!’ cried the Morrigan rolling her eyes again, ‘It’s flesh that grows you and feeds your young, lung, rung, each according to their kind!’

The Morrigan coughed and spat neatly to one side, ‘Fish indeed, bleed, heed! A raven you are and that means gleanings of the dead, bread, fed. Now I'll tell you why youngling!’

And so she did with many a confusing rhyme, cackle and cough and the gist of her teaching was simply this:

Creatures weave one of two tapestries in their lives, the Tapestry of Life and the Tapestry of Death, one at one time and one at another.

The death of one creature leads to the life for another and all must eat and live and then one day die. Then they can provide nourishment for creatures alike to the raven, the worm and the beetle and life prospers transformed by those that weave the Tapestry of Death to the benefit of all creatures.

Ravenkind weave greatly of the Tapestry of Death and so bring life to themselves it is true, but also in harvesting dead and rotting corpses, before their festering can lead to disease and decay, thereby bringing benefit to all.

‘It takes all of the Creatures of the Wide World, hurled, unfurled, to balance the Scales set upon the Great Axis of Life’ cawed the Morrigan, ‘each of their own place, each of their own kind, hind, mind!’

‘Leave fishes for the fish, the osprey and the Fisher King my child and use that which ye have! A feathered wing to soar, a keen eye to see and nose to discern the scents of the air and a sharp and clever beak, reek, peek!’

‘That is the Majesty of Ravenkind and unless I miss my mark, and I seldom do so, majesty could be your calling my young Dubh, grub, hub!’ cackled the Morrigan.

‘Thank you Mistress Morrigan' said Dubh somewhat overwhelmed at this whole tirade but starting to feel a great sense of pride and belonging beginning to stir within him and simply this thought:

It does not matter what creature you are in Nature, or the part you have to play, for all of Nature is One.

Dubh flapped his wings and flew back east into the late morning sun thoughtful, but content.

A Story - Cupping the Balls (2010)

Ernie came back down the metal stairs, making carrying two pints look like a fucked human gyroscope in community care. I'd been thinking about what he'd said and I believed, with all the attributes of drunken certitude, that I'd marshalled my arguments;
'Nah man', by this point my accent and lexicon were mobile, 'Nah man, you're either talkin' shite or just cuppin' ya balls.'
I was satisfied to observe that my point had hit home as a muffled explosion of ginger indignity led to a minor spillage of weak, inexpensive bitter, which, tracing the contours of the glass with due deference to matters far more immutable than the one under discussion, did indeed make its way towards dripping on Ernie's jeans in the vicinity of the aforementioned cuppable spheres.
I looked around the beer garden, it was ball-cupping central.
Once the principal had been established, expressions of the central concept abounded. I took a sip of my Guinness and narrowed my eyes in what I imagined was a knowing manner. It is only fair to myself to say though that I was both aware of this and wryly self-pitying of my action. Sometimes, you are just too aware of certain things, but it didn't matter, I was on song, all the shit was set to one side. In vino veritas, I felt free and that made me feel happy and powerful and savage and wild.
'What the fuck are you talkin' about you pompous squint-eyed tart' rejoinded Ernie, managing to sound both the scornful victim of a laughable injustice and look a flush-cheeked ginger-bollock martyr to his ball-cupping faith at one and the same time. Schrödinger's indignity maybe.
Bloody hell I'd been caning those Guinness rapid.
I decided to elaborate on my new booze-fuelled social insights; 
'You're no better than fucking students, clanning together in great flocks of wankery, each one identical to the next because they cringingly test the waters to gauge what everyone thinks before proffering an timid yet vehement opinion nominally of their own.
'Same deal goes for dress, music, who to like, what to scorn, whatever, you get the idea? They are just cupping each other's balls, making each other feel warm and safe, it's like swaddling clothes. But if we all cupped each other's balls no-one would ever get hurt maybe, but we'd get nowhere fast I tell you.' 
I stopped to breathe, 'What I'm saying is that I like it when people think for themselves and not just cup the old balls whilst enjoying a solid cupping in return. That nonsense will only cause psychic hernias and spiritual floating testicles...'
I had a little laugh, Ernie was smiling from one corner of the mouth too.
'Go on then', he said, 'Tell me how I am supposed to be cupping me fuckin' balls, this I have got to hear.'
I picked up a beermat and twizzled it between my fingers as a rambled on.
'Right, let's break it break it down.' said I, rather tragically miming scratching some record decks to accompany that last sentence. I even made the appropriate noises too. 
I launched in again, 'You, and your particular ball-cupping crew, are dreadful snobbish elitists when it comes to music. This, of course, stems from university.' Fittingly I had assumed a rather donnish air, gone were the expletives, arrived instead were a certain rhythym and cadence of authority. I wonderered how long I could keep it up for.
'Elitists my arse! We just like good music'
'Hold on a sec, hear me out before you see reason' I quipped weakly and felt compelled to have a ball-cupping glance at Ernie but fortunately tipsy smiles all round at this extra-feeble joke. Aren't feeble jokes amongst friends the best kind of social binder? Like sharing sweets in the schoolyard I guess.
I began to open up on this new theory, Ernie said to get on with it. I returned to the main event with renewed and impassioned gusto;
'What is most important is what you all agree not to like' said I, 'basically anything popular in any way shape or form. Haha you utter wankers, in a nutshell that's fucking true. You thereby cull yourself from the happy bland herd so you can stand around in wankery-central beanie hats and ill-favoured ill-fitting corduroy trousers, cupping each others balls gladly, frantically, in fact it's necessary!
And talkin' ball-cupping twaddle about fuckin' pre-historic Indian techno and the Boards of bastard Canada or whatever "approved by being unpopular" cack-twattery you're obliged to be into by the collective will of the Testicular Tribe.
In fact some of that music is really very good, but that's not my point at all.' 
Excited and warming to my theme, the putative don had relapsed into the cheerfully demotic, vulgar language I enjoyed so much, all in the nicest possible way of course.
'So what is your point?' Asked Ernie.
'Ah I dunno, think for yourself, you're missing out on the bigger picture viewed but through a twat darkly, dah di dah, I'm just cupping my own balls here haha.
It's the principle I'm interested in...' I petered out, when was the last time I ate? Ugh!
I had lost my head of steam to Bastardo McBooze; It both giveth, and then taketh away.
I'll have to write all this down sober, I thought, be funny probs.
'Go cup your balls at the bar' said Ernie, lighting a truly mangled roll-up, 'Your round you nob.'

A Poem - Strange Blue Pill (2012)

Take strange blue pill
To let me will
Or bind my will
To keep me still.

And large white pill
To still my will
I've had my fill
It makes me ill.

With strange blue pill
I can fulfill
My will to still
Gnaw of white pill.

That is my will
I've had my fill
That is my will
Just to be still.

A Poem - Seesaw (2010)

The seesaw hangs in the balance,
As an implacable stone gaze looks on,
Pitiless and cold,

Withholding any meaning
From the timid anguished rider
And destroying demon bold.

One slumps leaden in defeat,
The other stamps with dreadful glee;
If they'd meet at my soul's fulcrum
Then they'd both let me be free.

Ones thoughts weigh more than oceans;
Dreadful fathoms of despair.
The others ticking, flicking thoughts
Are lighter than the air.

One builds not but holds the oceans,
The other labours night and day -
Turning all that's builded up before
To chaos and dismay.

One can never summon Hope -
The future is a turning knife.
The other's plans are towers
Of gleaming fire and brittle ice.

The seesaw hangs in the balance,
I found you once at the fulcrum
And joy spread, like a wave of sunshine,
Over my life.

But when I returned to the fulcrum,
The stooped crippled wretch
And broker of confusion
Had let out the tide
Through my soul.

A Poem - Camden Lock (2008)

The gift you gave me
Was love.

The gift you gave me
Was a recollection of happy times
We shared.

The gift you gave me
Was hope.

The gift you gave me
Was release from nagging torment.

The gift you gave me
Was a breathing space.

The gift you gave me
Was...

A mojito.

Your consideration,
Your care,
Your concerned, caring, pained eyes -
Your tending touch,
Your laughter,

The wonder of you!

Love, love, love!

Looking over the sun-drenched sea of stalls,
Rapt in your oasis,
Wrapped in your bower of hope,
At liberty, the chains of sadness loosed,
By your gifts,
By your sunshine,
Tears welled in my eyes for the joy of you.

How I loved that mojito,
How tears well for you.

Can you not remember
That our love was truth? 

A Poem - Hidden Bruises (2004)

A broken dream and one that's tarnished,
Gave release to birth of new
Dreams that slumbered never easy,
Dreams I dreamt I'd share with you.
Time has passed and passed so surely,
Yet, at times, my times are raw -
Surprised I am that sorely, sorely,
Hidden bruises wound me more.

A Story - Firecrest and How He Became King of the Birds (2020)

Caractacus Plumefeather, Noble Chieftain of the Little Owls, High Beak, and First Minister of the People of the Feathered Wing, shook up his small, round, brown wings, ruffled up his tan chest feathers, coughed, hiccuped, fell over, got back up again (with an oak leaf curling on his head), and gave three loud clear hoots to call the assembled People of the Feather to order.

Silence quickly fell over the Parliament Dell, deep inside the ancient green, black and brown forest.(After much shuffling, coughing and many excited little hoots and whistles of course!)

The Feathered People well knew that this was an Important Day.

A Great Gathering had not been called since the High Queen Pulchritude Longneck, the proud Chieftain of the Swan People, had gone to guard the deep pools beyond the Vaults of Heaven some ten years before.

Caractacus began, ‘Noble People of the Feather’ he hooted, ‘Assembled dignitaries, Princes, Princesses, Princelings, Beaks, Talons, chicklings, one and all, hearken to the words of my beak!’

He coughed again, his spectacles slipped down his beak, he coughed once more, drew a deep breath that swelled up his small brown chest, and continued,  

‘A people without a King or a Queen are like a swallow that has lost his way and knows not whither to fly in Winter.’ he declared.

‘Too long have we been without a leader to govern and sustain us with his or her wisdom, kindness and sound judgement.’

‘I, Caractacus Plumefeather, invoke my right as High Beak and First Minister to proclaim that the time-honoured ritual of the Apogee of the Vaults is at hand!’

‘I call upon all of the Feathered People, each alike and unlike, and of his or her kind, to send forth all ye who would aspire to the Orb and Sceptre of the Skies!’

‘The rules are perfectly clear’ he cried, ‘whichsoever of ye flies the highest, verily unto the very Vault of the Skies, shall be crowned the King or the Queen, and all shall lower the beak in homage!’

‘Come forth all ye the brave, noble and just!’ he hooted.

A deeper silence now fell over the Dell and the feathered kin looked at each other, looked away quickly again, and shuffled their clawed feet uneasily.

Not a single Beak or Princeling moved.

Before too long however a stiff, blustery breeze began to blow, ruffling leaf, feather and green grass alike. Strong, steady wingbeats could be heard, growing ever closer.

Suddenly, a mighty Eagle descended swiftly on the Parliament Dell. He alighted with a great show of grace and power directly before Caractacus the High Beak.

‘I come to challenge as is my right.’ declared the Eagle proudly, nay haughtily, holding his huge, sharp beak high in the air as he shuffled back and forth on his talons rather like a turkey. He flapped his wings three times, and then settled his beautiful feathers and kept as still and proud as a mighty old oak tree on a crisp, clear, still Spring morning in April.

‘Ah!’ said Caractacus a little quietly, ‘Welcome and well met Aquilus Ironbeak my old friend. I did wonder whither ye might be on this most momentous of days. I trust your goodly wife and the eaglets are well?’

‘Quite well.’ replied Aquilus shortly, then looked at his powerful right talons, lifting them in the air, and then the left, really for rather longer than was strictly necessary. He settled again with his beak aloft, silent and proud.

‘Who else aspires to challenge?’ called Caractacus, once more looking out over the assembled People.

A perfect silence broke out in the glade.

A minute passed.

And then another. 

But just as the traditionally allowable third minute was nearly up, swift and frenetic wingbeats were heard. A bustling tiny blur of yellow, green, white and red flew swiftly from the branch of an old alder tree and alighted beside the Eagle and the Little Owl.

‘I doth aspire!’ cried Firecrest, for indeed it was he, in his high-pitched, swift and chattery voice.

Well, you should have seen the consternation and hullabaloo amongst the People of the Feathered Wing! Some squawked, some hooted and everyone shook their feathers excitedly. Tiny brown Mrs. Wren even laid an even tinier brown, speckled egg, but I’m afraid to say many of the People simply laughed, although mostly in surprise rather than in any real contempt.

The Firecrest was well known to be a very feisty little fellow and, with his wife, had raised his clutches as good and well as any bird could ever hope to do.

Caractacus crossed his luminous, yellow round eyes, picked up his spectacles, which had fallen to the ground, took a breath, stopped, and began again,

‘Well met Regulus Ignicapillus Spidersbane!’ he cried, for that indeed was the Firecrests rather astonishing name!

‘The allotted time is over,’ he said firmly. A hush once more settled over the green and leafy Dell.

‘I will settle this matter once for all.’ declared Aquilus the Eagle and began huffing and puffing and working his mighty wings until the all of the Parliament Dell around the High Beak was aflutter with leaves, dead grass and gossamer spiders webs.

‘Aquilus first came forth and thus may make the first sally at the Skies, Regulus.’ said Caractacus, turning to the Firecrest.

But Regulus was nowhere to be seen.

Caractacus scratched his head with his right wing, gave a little hoot and wondered. He was an old owl and had seen many things and worked hard for his People all his life. Such are the beginnings of wisdom, and he pondered, even as the Eagle gave a mighty cry echoing all around the Dell, and then leapt seven feet into the air with a single beat of his enormous wings.

One slow, hard beat followed another as the Eagle shouldered his way through the moist, thick and cool morning air. His pace began to quicken as he swiftly left the Parliament Dell and the craning necks of the People of the Feather far below.

A fierce song sang in his breast as he climbed and climbed and climbed once more, until the air became thin and cold, and a gelid sheen began to form on the primary feathers of his wingtips.

Upwards and upwards he now soared with slow, steady beats until his breath began to falter and the curve of the Earth could be seen on the horizon.

At last even Aquilus could go no farther and he turned and began to circle down, down, down towards the dell once more, breathing heavily. He was rather dizzy and spots appeared before his keen, yellow eyes.

But what was this?!

Just as the mighty Eagle began to turn for the Dell, a blurry and tiny fury of colour was seen, and a flapping, so fierce and quick that no ear could ever have followed it, thrummed in the thin cold air.

Regulus, the Firecrest, burst forth from beneath the Eagle’s fanned tail and shot, like a tiny red and gold meteor, a full foot further into the thin, cold air before plummeting like a stone towards the Dell and the assembled People of the Feather once more.

Well, if you thought that there had been consternation amongst the People of the Feather beforehand, then you should have seen the Parliament Dell now!

Many a bird simply stood stock-still looking at the skies with a gaping beak, but the flapping, pecking and hooting, crying and screeching of the rest made a great noise such as had never been heard before, and never would be again!

Aquilus crashed back down into the dry, crispy oak leaves that littered the floor of the forest, and the blurry hum of tiny beating wings was heard as Regulus broke the plummet of his fall to land neatly before the astonished throng. 

A perfect silence reigned golden over the Dell.

Not even the wind dared to breathe.

‘Most unprecedented, most irregular!’ cried Caractacus suddenly and fell frowningly silent for a full minute as the people waited in complete silence. What had just happened they wondered!

At last Caractacus turned to the People of the Feather and declared,

‘The Ancient Law has been fulfilled!’

He paused for what seemed like an eternity and then cried,

‘The Firecrest, Prince Regulus Ingicapillus Spidersbane, has gained the Apogee and flew farthest up on high! I do now declare that he is King by Right of Trial and all shall bend the beak!’

And Caractacus did so.

And one by one, all the birds of the forest did the same, until only Aquilus the Eagle, still much winded from his flight, was the only bird left standing upright.

After some moments, Aquilus bowed his noble crown, sighed, and sank slowly and wearily to one knee, beak lowered, and a great cry and cheer burst forth in the Ancient Forest.

And that, dear hearts, is how the Firecrest outwitted the mighty Eagle and was crowned the rightful King of the Birds.

His first statute was a simple one. Aquilus Ironbeak was created High Talon of the Winged Army in perpetuum, that is, for the whole of his life.

Aquilus snorted somewhat at this proclamation, but ruffled his feathers proudly and raised his beak high once again.

For you see, the Firecrest really was a very wise and clever bird, and he governed his People very well, indeed until the very end of his days.

Firecrest - A Poem

Fierce prince amongst the woodland alder boughs,
Winged fury how thy hovering endows
Thee with the keenest skill to pluck the fly
From out the web; The spider's clustered eyes
Are burning with reflections of it ire,
Reflections of thy burning crest of fire.

Prince of the birds thy intellect outflew
Most mighty eagle, all hold it is true.
Ye hid beneath the proudful eagle's tail,
There scheming that the rightful king be hailed.
For he who flew the furthest up on high
Would claim the orb and sceptre of the skies.

And when thy adversary stalled and tired
Ye leapt from out his tail and thus aspired
To gain the apogee and give the cry.
'I Firecrest now am king amongst the wise.'

A Poem - By Madness Rent (2004)

If life were set in simpler times,
Some mythic memory;
Fostered by the fondest dreams
My heart designed for thee,

Then days would come
When that which was
The air that let me breathe -
The balm that cooled my fevered brow
And calmed a mind that seethed,

Would flow into my breast again
And soothe my tender heart,
Then those that were by madness rent
Would not so cruelly part,

For what I dreamed
Was meant to be;
A simple, blessèd purity.

A Poem - Hidden Bruises (2023)

A broken dream and one that's tarnished,
Gave release to birth of new
Dreams that slumbered never easy,
Dreams I dreamt I'd share with you.
Time has passed and passed so surely,
Yet, at times, my times are raw.
Surprised I am that sorely, sorely,
Hidden bruises wound me more.

A Poem - Blade (2012)

Weigh the blade with 
A supple wrist -
Find its balance, 
Lilt and list.

The blade is wrought from tempered blends,
In nine white fires nine demons tend.
Nine times in icy depths it's thrust -
Slough off each impure outer crust.

Next white-hot blade takes ringing blows -
That arm an ancient puissance knows.
Love, envy, loss and wisdom-folly,
By these blows blade is made holy.

Anoint the blade with unguent balms,
Enweave the blade with potent charms,
Sing hidden magicks from the air,
Forge runes to fend off mortal cares.

Last stoke the furnace of the heart,
The final forging named 'Thou Art'.
The blade is supple, lithe and hard,
Fix blade to hilt and hilt to guard.

Weigh the blade with
A supple wrist -
Find its balance,
Lilt and list.

White fire, dread cold
proved the blade is true,
You forged the blade
and the blade is you.

A Poem - He Wishes in Vain (2004)

How I wish I could behold
Just once before I go,
Your face soft set in sympathy
Forgiveness for my woe.

I wish I could excise that past,
A mind beyond control;
In vain are such desirings,
Fruitless yearnings of the soul.

A Poem - Breakfast (2004)

Once upon a springtime morn,
My body sank into a yawn,
And what preoccupied me most
Was yearning for my tea and toast.

A Poem - Firecrest (2017)

Fierce prince amongst the woodland alder boughs,
Winged fury how thy hovering endows
Thee with the keenest skill to pluck the fly
From out the web; The spider's clustered eyes
Are burning with reflections of it ire,
Reflections of thy burning crest of fire.

Prince of the birds thy intellect outflew
Most mighty eagle, all hold it is true.
Ye hid beneath the proudful eagle's tail,
There scheming that the rightful king be hailed.
For he who flew the furthest up on high
Would claim the orb and sceptre of the skies.

And when thy adversary stalled and tired
Ye leapt from out his tail and thus aspired
To gain the apogee and give the cry.
'I firecrest now am king amongst the wise.'

A Poem - Close Nestled in the Night (2004)

I have returned from sudden slumber's realm -
Deep into that land sojournèd I.

The draught of sleep it calls me, 'Cometh back!',
To wander 'neath the piercèd Firmament
Of the darkling sky.

Yet shouldst thou purpose to communion share,
From yonder balmy islands hedonist,
Put thee aside all anxious thought of care,

For rather of thee, than slumber,
Wouldst my brow receive
The blessing of
A tender
Kiss.

And how define that quality
All innocent yet graced
By reflected understanding
From within a simpler place?

Beyond the genesis of thought,
Before the birth of light,
There was thou and I and love
Close-nestled in the night.

And how define that quality
That bypasses all mind,
That thou and I and love were once
Conceived by Heaven kind?

For the simple grace of seeing thee
Called remembrance to my heart,
That thou and I and love once more
Might be again one part.

And the wonder of that quality
Is its essence is so pure,
That mind and body catch their breath,
Mute spirit is quite sure.

For wordless spirit knows it's own
From 'fore the birth of light;
For there was thou and I and love
Close nestled in the night.

A Poem - Lion (2018)

As bold as the godly,
The Proverb sayeth,
Noble, royal
And strong.

Unparalleled
In stateliness,
The Revelator's
Song.

Sung out
The stony centuries,
The Root of David
Roars,

The Beast hath
Struck
Upon the heel;
The Beast can strike
No more.

Conquering Lion
Of the Tribe of Judah,
Open the
Seventh Seal.

To the Lion that is
The Lamb that was slaughtered,
All of Heaven
Kneels.

A Poem - Lament for Lost Love (2005)

Oh what dread torment is this?
Riven from her that used to kiss
Away my troubles and my fears;
Her warm lips once soothed away my tears.

If I'd been given any choice,
She never would have heard my voice
Unfeeling, cruel and far away
From where my own true sentiments lay.

And I have spoken to her since,
And it seems she will convince
Herself it's better we did part;
She told me that I broke her heart.

With calmer mind but crippled soul
I'm at the diametric pole
And though many months have passed
My heart is broken too at last.

Now sleep is stolen, all is ashes,
There is no solace in the world.
My angel-light in fearful darkness
Tortured as my mind unfurled.

She strove so hard and gave so much,
But so much is all that one can bear,
Her heart and soul were wounded, bleeding.
But mania hid away my share.

I must have seemed so cruelly heartless,
Not gentle, tender, loving, kind.
My soul that loved her deeply,
Locked deep in my wounded mind.

Ah darling, darling! please forgive me!
You were the one that took my heart
And gave it all your shining beauty
And drove away the binding dark.

You gave me that most precious gift,
That I wondered so to feel,
By every facet of your beauty
My wounded troubled heart was healed.

So precious are you to me darling
For every soothing of my heart,
That I should hurt and lose you is
The deepest cut and cruellest dart.

A Poem - Dubh the Raven (2024)

Dubh pecks the bones the moon provides,
Flesh gleaned from every nightly tide

Dubh pecks the eye from the dog fox corpse,
Entangled in the hoary gorse.

Dubh dives into the Mirrored Mere,
The Portal of the Feathered Seers.
Dubh speeds the passage of the fallen,
The spirit’s journey is his calling.

An unkindness of sable Ravens
Flock the bloody carrion field
Returning to the Axis’ Wheel
All that the dead can yield.

Dubh feasts on flesh thus setting free,
From mortal coils sweet liberty.
Dubh strips the flesh from the dog fox corpse,
Entangled in the hoary gorse.

Dubh pecks the bones the moon provides,
Flesh gleaned from every nightly tide.

A Poem - All Things Fade Yet Never Wholly Do Depart (2006)

All things fade
In the seasons of the heart.
Love springs verdant, born of joy
And twines us as one part.

But all things fade
And Springtime does depart;
Brave summer's sun shines down
On the summer of brave hearts.

And love's sweet petals bloom
Yet in the end they pall,
For the wind blows keen from 
Clouded skies,
The rain begins to fall.

Yet all things fade,
Mere rain is chilled to sleet;
The heart's heart knows too well the cold;
The seasons are complete.

For love's tumultuous chords rang forth,
Yet in the end all fell,
Our heart beats sound no more as one
Yet ever beat, 'farewell'.

Yes all things fade
Yet never wholly do depart,
For always faint strains of our love
Sound in the quiet heart.

When the heart's heart finding stillness
Finds the inner voices clear,
Hearts sing the songs of happiness,
Hearts sing the songs of tears.

Rebirth (2024)

After two years of craven dust
I bought some headphones
Because I must
Have music to live
Whatever shakes from Yeats' sieve.

I could listen bit by bit
In fits and starts
It did impart
A nascent yearning in me
To play the music aloud
Play my guitar proud
And heal
Oh how I feel
Green shoots
And long for the Spring
And I will sing
I will sing
I will sing
For the joy of Spring

I have become awake 
And only music and words
Will slake
My soul
My birthing soul.

Effulgence - A Memory (2005)

Every crystal of magic
In the snowflake soft silence of effulgence,
Centered in your love-brimmed eyes.

Our first Noël
With wondrous promise,
Trod soft on warm white blankets,
Under starry skies.

But the promise faded:
Magic was denied.

A Poem - Hope (2023)

Rare strains sound in the quiet heart,
Permit discord to depart.
Harmony blesseth every person's ear,
Springtime's birdsong comes near.

A Poem - Happy I Rested (2007)

Happy I rested
As in my mind's flight,
I raised up my glass to thy
Dark eyed delight.
At the end of my workday
Thy countenance drew,
My dreams of sweet rest
And sweet longings for you.

A Poem - Peregrine (I) (2009)

Hoar-gouts of frost-sharp crystal screams
Buffet the crossed wings of the face-barred falcon,
Closed tight over his crown,
Tight against the cruel wind,
The keening world.

Eyes that have seen too far, too fierce, too keen;
Beheld white fire masquerading as inviolate truth 
Complete,
Feeding from its own flame,
Reflection
Burned, burned, burned,
Are hooded and blind.

No prophecies are scried, no magic glanced;
They are not filled with the white sharp edge of the sun's light
That comes searing in and binds the lidless eye
And coils the fire-mind.
 
The falcon's head lifts, its eyes craving roseate dawn,
Not the black-iced pain of night.
A scream is cast into the maelstrom and torn away
Like a tongue that cannot talk of truce.

Would that a fleet curved wing
And the pained yearning of a fierce heart
Would soon carry a pilgrim, steeped
In the sadness and the madness,
Back to the great Axis of Life.

A Poem - Sip (2006}

I see you sitting back,
That far and yet focused look in your eyes,
The smoke of a contemplative cigarette,
Floating gentle,
As the gentle sips I take of each one of Your 
Sighs.

I see you sitting back,
Desire rushes in,
With its continual butterfly-winged surprise.
I see the sweetest dizzying,
Headiest wine of desire
Born in the narrowing reflection of your eyes.

Lament for Lost Love (2005)

Oh what dread torment is this?
Riven from her that used to kiss
Away my troubles and my fears;
Her warm lips once soothed away my tears.

If I'd been given any choice,
She never would have heard my voice
Unfeeling, cruel and far away
From where my own true sentiments lay.

And I have spoken to her since,
And it seems she will convince
Herself it's better we did part;
She told me that I broke her heart.

With calmer mind but crippled soul
I'm at the diametric pole
And though many months have passed
My heart is broken too at last.

Now sleep is stolen; all is ashes,
There is no solace in the world.
My angel-light in fearful darkness
Tortured as my mind unfurled.

She strove so hard and gave so much,
But so much is all that one can bear,
Her heart and soul were wounded, bleeding,
Bipolar mania hid my share.

I must have seemed so cruelly heartless,
Not gentle, tender, loving, kind;
My soul that loved her deeply,
Locked deep in my wounded mind.

Ah darling, darling! please forgive me!
You were the one that took my heart
And gave it all your shining beauty
And drove away the binding dark.

You gave me that most precious gift,
That I wondered so to feel,
By every facet of your beauty
My wounded troubled heart was healed.

So precious are you to me darling
For every soothing of my heart,
That I should hurt and lose you is
The deepest cut and cruellest dart.

A Poem - Peregrine (ii) (2018)

Rare, cooling air caresses me,
I soar on
Subtle currents,
The Vault of Heaven in flux.

Alone I soar, wings, tail, splayed,
Delicate instinct
Holds me on the Axes,
Wild winds and I are one.

My yellow-rimmed eyes slowly
Quarter,
Searching
The flock below,

Deigning to encompass
In my keen sight
The straggler,
The weakling,
The fool.

I will cull you from your kind;
It is a kindness when weighed
In the balance
Set upon the great Axis of Life.

The hot yellow sunlight beats directly,
Linear,

The light and I are one.

I am the striking beam that
Obscures the swift demise.
A sudden ecstasy!
I stoop!

And pierce the sky like an arrow
Loosed
From out the golden sun.

A Poem - Golden Eagle (2024)

Stately in power and grandeur I am.
I soar so seamless on drafts of air.
More regal and majestic than
All those foolish enough to dare

To cross me for I am the feathered king.
Oh come ye and let the heralds sing,
Let choirs of clarion trumpets ring
Melodies of the air.

A Poem - I Am Toad (2024}

I am Toad.

Here's a slug,
It's my grub,

I am Toad.

Here's a worm.
How it squirms.

In my craw

Shut the door
Of my mouth.

I am Toad,

Send it South
To my gut.

What's afoot?

Another worm,
How it squirms.

I am Toad.

A Poem - Banshee (2024)

Ah! what cry pierces the night,
Turning my marrow to a wight's
Calling, calling.

Clad in green and grey
While I live she will not stay.
Her prophetic wailing, wailing.

A doom is layed upon me;
A doom I cannot shake,

Would that a fierce heart beating 
Her malice would slake.
A half-moon is sailing, sailing.

Ah! What cry pierces the night,
Turning my harrowed soul to
Falling, falling!

A Poem - The Blackbird and the Peregrine (2018)

I dreamed a blackbird's
Song one day,
Close by a birch she
Trilled

Sweet melodies
Then there was thou
And time was stunned 
And stilled.

Ye did not sing
But I well knew
The song
Heard in my heart,

Derived from out
The tenderness;
Thy beauty
Did impart.

No tick of clock,
No bustling flock,
And all but
Sweet desire,

To know
Just how
A kiss betwixt 
Would set the world afire.

And Oh! First kiss!
Sweet Lord! What's this?
The clarion trumpets
Rang

And fires burned fierce,
Two hearts were pierced;
The cherubim
They sang.

The Blackbird
And the Peregrine
Gave cry
With voices gay

And sang in
Perfect harmony,
For Love was born
That day.

A Poem - Grateful (2024)

I'm grateful for my family,
My gratitude is almost unspeakable
But I'll try;
They coaxed me through such awful times and stuck by me
Even when I behaved awfully.

They gave me respite and sanctuary
When I was crippled by depression
And put up with me talking bollocks and Spending all my money 
When I was singing with mania.

I'm so grateful to them.

I'm grateful for my best friend,
We've been through thick and thin together.
I can't wait to go camping in Spring,
Smoke dope and listen to metal
And watch the buzzards circle
Over the valley.

I'm grateful for my bipolar friends
It's nice to be understood,
I love them and I need them
So much less needs to said 
When we talk,
It's a blessed relief.

I'm grateful for the trauma my condition has heaped upon me.
It's made me who I am 
And I am okay with me
At last.

I'm grateful because it might be
That God knows
What he's doing
After all.

A Sonnet - Genesis (2024)

Thrashing five long years in oozing mire -
Sleep so scant that I convulsed.
A mind aflame with roiling fires -
Turning in a spiral pulse.
Denied an outlet for my words,
My mind collapsed upon itself,
Turning, churning, never heard,
The impact on my mental health
Deep so deep; the pain abhor -
I journeyed far through mania's fire
And every concept became law;
They say that God loves well a trier.
And I will keep on keeping on -
For me new life has just begun.

A Poem - Bat (2024)

Stretching out my leathery membrane
Wings,
My feet unclench,
Whoosh!
Drop like a stone
Until I flex,
And beat.
As rapid as my heart.

I flit over the silent
Canopy
Of the forest
Black
In the shadows of the moon.

Moth flits silent too,
But I cast out my calls,
Bouncing bouncing, bouncing;
Three dimensions
At my behest.

Ping! I feel you!
Ping! I chase you
Acrobatic,
Swift I catch you,
Crunch you down.

I flit over the silent
Canopy
Of the forest
Sable
In the shadows of the moon.

Lioness (2026)

I pad behind you, Watchful, unfeasible power coiled in grace. Watchful, Alert, Proud beyond expression. Suddenly! Winged...